If I asked you why
Would you be able to answer me honestly
Without any hesitation
What is wrong with me
Chopping away at my hair
Silently screaming obscenities
Picking up the razor, shaving away
Unknown to everyone but me
Can you see the frustration building up inside me?
You're so soft
I want to taste you
Do you know what you do to me?
Sometimes I lie in bed
Reliving those sweet moments
Spent curled up on your couch
Running my hands through your hair
Along your cheeks
Along your beard
You don't understand what you do to me
How much I yearn to stay with you
Curled up against you
Wanting to feel your warmth
Sometimes I want to feel wanted
It used to be enough just to know
That someone yearned for me
Even if only for a few minutes
Play dress up
Watch them closely
Every action carefully acted out
The sweet young thing
The nervous young girl
The one who understood
I couldn't let my guard down
I couldn't stop.
It was never enough
There was always something missing
The name is rolling off my tongue
Tasting each letter
Nervous. Unsure. Seeking the warmth of another human being.
My heart is beating madly.
I am a complete nervous mess.
I'm slipping through the cracks
I don't have any control
What are you doing to me?
Without having to contemplate
I have never lost control of my emotions like that
At least not in front of someone
I'm slipping through the cracks.
I want you to tell me you love me
I want to feel wanted by you.
Even if its only a lie.